Time is something that we think we all have. We all say "I will do that tomorrow" or "I still got time, what's the rush?', no one realizes that we all take time for granted. Things can change in the blink of an eye. Thats how we end up with regrets. Nothing in life is permanent, and it is thoughts like that that will hurt you in the long run.
Last Saturday one of my best friends was sent back to Germany. She was told she had to weeks left before she had to go back so we made all these plans for two weeks, instead of enjoying that day we spend it planning. Well later that night she was told that she had to leave the following morning. That Saturday. It broke my heart and I don't think our friend group felt any different than I did. We did what we could in that amount of time. But it wasn't enough. Of we had just enjoyed that day we would not be feeling this. Last Saturday was really hard because I woke up knowing I would have to say goodbye to her at 3pm. We all tried to go to the airport and say goodbye. Sadly only two of us could make it. We made the best of it thought. When we go there, we helped her with her bags and then we found a few seats and sat down. we talked and laughed, and cried until she had to go through the security check point. My friend and I hung back and tried not to cry as she went thought the checkpoint and then into the train to go to her gate.
The drive back home was so quiet it hurt. It all hit me that if we had just enjoyed the previous day this all would have been a lot easier, or maybe saying goodbye will never be easier. I still can't rap my self around the idea that she left. Believe me I wanted to be mad at her and the people she was saying with but what good will that be. I am just going to let myself miss her for right now and hope that soon she will come back.
I know this post is not as long as the others that I have done but for right now this is all I can manage to post because my past week has been nothing but missing my friend. It went through really slow and a lot of tears were shed in the group. We are just taking it day by day.
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