I can't imagine what my life would be like without my family. It's been rough. Ever since I decided to come stay with my family for a while things have been different. For one there is no yelling or arguing. My parents are trying to understand what I did, and I have a better relationship with both of them. I guess They really were just disappointed that I did not talk to them before I made a huge choice.
In all honesty my parents are starting to see me as an adult and not just as their kid. I love my parents and I am blessed that they are my parents. We have been through a lot together. There are still that annoy me about both of them, just like I am sure there are things that annoy them about me. But oh well, there is still a lot that I know I need to fix about myself before I can even start to look at the flaws of others, starting with the fact that I need to be more trusting towards them and stop being so trusting towards the world. I know I am not perfect, and that I will make mistakes along the way, because I am human, I am just grateful that my parents taught me how to stand back up after I fall.
Although times are hard right now because of COVID, I know that I will always be someone who fights for what I think is right and I will fight to make sure that I am still standing. I also got to thank my friends. I don't have many, but my parents always said "if you can count the number of friends you have in one hand, you are lucky". The people I call my friends have been there since what feels like forever.
We are a group of 5 total. Funny part is that we are all so different. One of them is the laughter of the group always making us laugh, and cheering us up with their smile, the second one is the the energy, always keeping everyone hyped, the you have the idea person who is always looking for fun things to do, I am really close with them because I am the planned always setting dates and times to go do these activities, and least but not last you have the glue, always making sure that everyone is involved and everyone is present. Our team would not work if one of these parts was missing.
Both aspects, social and family, are what make me... well me. Family keeps me grounded and with a good plan ahead of me and friends make sure that I have fun along the way. I really am blessed to have these amazing people in my life. I know that I will fall... a lot more than I am willing to admit, but I also know that these are the people who are going to be the first ones to call me when something is wrong.
There are also other people in my life that I know I am so blessed to have in my life. Starting with one of my childhood best friends. Sadly the are not in the group mostly cause they are always busy. But I am so grateful to have them in my life. They always cheer me up and make jokes with me, and I will always be here for them. Even if half the time I don't understand their jokes, I will still laugh. And the Person that I am hard core crushing on. They know I like them, and that I will always be here for them. I do wish we spoke more but I do not want to annoy them. I always smile when they text me, and I know I can't flirt but I love (playfully) annoying them because they gets me right back, or when I try to to flirt they either encourage or make fun of me, but I love it... not that I will ever tell them that. They are honesty my favorite person to talk to.
So I will just say that I can't ever ask for anyone better in my life.
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