Being able to reflect on myself is one of me main goals. This week has been challenging in the sense that I was alsways questioning who I was and what my worth was. We are already in February, and that's taken me by shock. 2021 is going by a lot fasted than I thought it was going to go. It doesn't help that every time I think I have something figured out, it changes again. 2020 definitely took a toll on my mental, physical, and emotional health and I am still recovering from that. I am just not sure if I am making progress. I have started to count my blessings a lot more now to see if that helps, and it has started to help. What also has been helping is counting the things I look forward to once COVID restrictions have been lifted. Number one on my list has been "Go to Peru and see my family again".
I am really homesick of Peru. Most people do not think much of it, however to me it is a gem. I love how kind every one is and how the town, that I am from, always comes together as a community and helps build each other up. I am counting the day before I can hop on a plane and work my way to see my uncles, aunts, cousins, friends, and most important my Grandmother (on my moms side). I miss her so much. We do not always see eye to eye, but she is my biggest cheerleader, and she always knows how to make me feel better. I remember the time I tried to teach her English, and it did not work, because all we did was laugh and laugh and just talk about what the future will bring if I keep a positive mind set and if I see working hard. I find it very hard to do that now, Every time that I think about my grandmother or my home in Peru I tear up.
I am also looking forward to seeing my grandfather (on my dads side) because I miss him, he usually comes up every so often to spend time with us. I haven't seen him in a while and it is very hard not to. This man has become like a second father figure to me. We talk on the phone from time to time and I am hoping that continues. I also remember traveling with him when I was a little girl. He would tell me stories of how things where when my dad was my age. He also always found a way to give me hope when I felt the world coming to an end. I know that is very dramatic, but hey it's how I would feel.
Time never seems to slow down and 2021 is flying by and all we can do is hope that soon we will go back to a very similar form of normal.
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